The Way I Used to Be by Amber Smith
Version: ARC PB
Rating: 3 stars
Published: March 22nd 2016
Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn’t change who she was. But the night her brother’s best friend rapes her, Eden’s world capsizes.
What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved—who she once loved—she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she’s supposed to tell someone what happened but she can’t. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.
Told in four parts—freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year.
I won this book from a Goodreads giveaway, and will be reviewing it. My review is not impacted in any way.
Trigger warnings ahead: Rape, violence, abuse, sex, etc.
The Way I Used to Be is not a light YA novel. The book begins with our main character, Eden, trying to process what had just happened minutes prior - she was raped by her brother's best friend, Kevin. As she was threatened with her life, she refuses to tell anyone, and as a result, this changes the "way she used to be", and it affects her for the rest of her high school years. The story is told in parts, starting with Freshman year all the way to Senior year, and in each year, Eden struggles with her identity and her relationships with everyone, going through a downward spiral of depression.